Living Dangerously

It's becoming obvious that the lack of a job and any sort of rigid structure in my life is having detrimental consequences.  I'm finding myself tossing aside any kind of rules or order, and just going about my days throwing caution to the wind. 

For example:  Doing the dishes with my daughter this weekend.  I washed, she dried.  There was some implement she was toweling off and she said to me, "Where does this go?"  I told her to just throw it in the silverware drawer.  She asked "But WHERE?"  I said, "Just throw it anywhere in there."

Next she was drying the regular silverware, and asked (very astutely, I think), "Then does it matter where I put these?" (meaning the assorted forks, knives and spoons she was holding).

Now in my past life, I would have told her, "YES it matters.  Put them in their correct slots in the silverware tray."  But my new self blurted out the completely carefree: "Nope. It doesn't matter at all.  Just drop them in the drawer." 

"Anywhere?"

"Anywhere."

And so today, after six or seven wash-and-dry sessions like that one, my silverware drawer is completely a mess.  Forks mixed with spoons mixed with knives mixed with spatulas mixed with slotted spoons. 

But you know what? It doesn't matter.  Anything I need is in there. And if it takes me a half second longer to find it, that's about the same half second my old self would have spent putting it in the proper place. 

I'm sure that once the summer is over and I've returned to regularly-scheduled programming, my silverware drawer will find itself back in orderly shape once again. 

But for now, I'm thoroughly enjoying the chaos. 

Comments

[Mr. Snitch!]

Excellent post. If everything else in your life is left to fly in the wind for a while, please keep writing.

[scorpy]

Ah, the freedom!

Enjoy, girlie! You don't know how many of us out here would love to be in your shoes! So even if it gets old-hat to you, enjoy it for us!

[Declan]

ya were was i? lmao ya but if u told emily to put the fork anywhere it would end up in my head hahaha
luv ya mom
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[Becky]

I was thinking before I saw the end that I think you probably needed a session of chaos. It might make it easier to go back to the job and "order."